Do not worry !
i know what you feel. But you don't have to worry about them . i don't know how to help you with the leaving the community thing but, its one of the best communitys i ever been .
My advice: stay ! don't worry i guess your new with these kind of things, you don't have to be embarrassed cause your diffrent !

EDIT: i guess you should open your eyes and spend some time reading old topics and things like that.
Open your eyes and read trought every post , or most of them. If you wish to give a better view of yourself , think trought before you post!